I was out of town on December 14th, 2012. I watched the developments in Sandy Hook, CT from afar... and very far away from my children. My sweet babies. Those sweet lost babies. They were all Jordan's age and I can't help but to take this massacre personally. So for now, it doesn't feel right to post. We are raising money for Camp No Limits in honor of Jordan's birthday... but it doesn't feel right to really push the final week leading up to Jordan's birthday.I'm just soaking in my time with my babies. I will not live scared. But for now, I will live more hyper aware of my blessings. I'm soaking in every pictures, song, board game and hug. We are blessed and my heart keeps aching.