When Jordan was born, I often wished there was a guidebook that helped parents of limb different kids. You know, a checklist of things you can do to make sure your child is getting the care he or she needs. My friends used to joke that this blog was the beginning of a guide for parents in the future.Now that I feel like I've figured out the kind of physical care Jordan needs... I find myself searching for a guidebook again. No, not a self-help book. I just wish I knew if the sibling battles, busy lifestyle and strange attitude problems from the kids are manageable. I wonder often if I'm messing up to a point where the kids will look back and say: that's when mom really screwed us up. I know no parent is perfect... But I'm feeling a ton of doubt today.I'm sure I'll get back to my confident self tomorrow.But I did try to broach peace between the kids tonight by requiring them to hold hands.